I'm feeling like crying right now, devastated, sad, hopeless, worried, scared¬ being myself at all.Tomorrow is A.'s operation. &I'm really really scared.. I couldn't even get to hug him for the last time.. I really really hope tt he'll not leave me tmrw. He's someone really really special to me.&I really need him to be by my side always. I'd be a no one if he leaves me.My whole life will change if he were to leave me. &I don't want it to happen. I really don't want it to happen at all.How I wish I could hug him, hear him laugh,&see his smile for the last time.I wish I could hear him sing for me for the last time.How I wish soo much...Hope he'll survive the operation. URGH!Why am I feeling so weak? I'm really loosing myself really fast.*******Mr Smurf, euu promised me tt eu'll not leave me. So, please stick with yr words. I don't want to loose euu.Please don't leave me... Euu made me realize who I really am, eu've changed me.&I appreciated it muchmuch.Eu've been a great brother, friend, father, helper, adviser, singer, hug-er, joker, cooker,&also a great Mr. Smurf.Thanks for being there for me, when I needed euu. Thanks for being patience to me whenever I made euu feel irritated.Thanks for making me laugh, smile, angry&sad whenever I'm with euu. Thanks for letting me hug euu.Thanks for the kiss... Thanks foe everything Mr. Smurf!I LOVE EUU!Soo, please don't leave me, okayy?
